You are invited to my Pity Party!

Honestly I got away from updating my post because I felt bad for everyone reading such depressing news...but today, even though I still don't have good news, I feel that everyone should be informed of our latest update. I have no idea were to start...but here goes. In the past two months Mike has lost almost 20 pounds and his breathing has become much worse. 4 "masses" (cyst's or tumors)have popped up throughout his body. He has two on his torso, one on his spine and another on his breast. Mike had a Mammogram and Ultrasound of his breast on Thursday 04/07/11. On Thursday we were told by the on-call Doctor at South Jersey Radiology that the mass looked similar to a cyst because it looked to have liquid in it but it also had a few particles. His thought was to have a needle biopsy. I remained hopeful. On Friday I called the oncologist and Mike's doctor told me that it was more then likely Mike's cancer has spread to his breast. They said it so matter of fact I lost all reason completely and didn't ask any questions. They are going to review the scans and report to verify their "over the phone" lax-of course it is-what did you expect diagnosis. Errr. Mike never really believed it was anything other then his cancer. I think he was putting on a good face for me with the hope that it might be a cyst. He is after all...superhuman. I on the other hand opeanly admit my defeat. I didn't take the news so well - it doesn't matter to me if he already had cancer or not. I don't like it. I don't like any of it and I know Mike doesn't either. I will keep you posted with the confirmed diagnosis when we receive one. So, want to attend our Pity Party? "It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to..." - Lesley Gore :)